I feel like I dug myself into a hole. A big giant lonely hole. After having someone sleep in my bed with me for the past two nights, I don’t want to go to sleep without someone there… I just don’t want to feel alone anymore. :( I want someone to actually care about me for once that’s more then a friend. I guess I’m just tired of either being a fuck buddy or a friend. Makes me feel like something is wrong with me, or that I need to change because I’m doing something wrong. Which I know everyone is gonna be like, !! Don’t say that they should realize how awesome you are without you telling them ect ect. But… doesn’t keep me from thinking and feeling that way. And all the people I want to actually date either turn out to be giant assholes, or aren’t interested, or live to damn far away. Its really just my luck. /sigh Maybe its the universes way of telling me I need to learn to be alone, function without other people. Which I’ve really tried before, but I need to be around people. I’m just a much happier person when I’m around people. IDK.
I should be asleep I have work in…. 6 hours now? Give or take… But, that means a cold, lonely bed. :/ No thanks. I’d rather rant on tumblr and maybe play another game of league of legends. Or something more entertaining. Oye. I don’t even know anymore. I really don’t.